You need to chill.
In fact, pretty much the entire human race needs, desperately, to chill.
I had a friend who would get greatly concerned for me when I would get excited about things. He would feel so strongly that I was setting myself up for disappointment. You might have a friend like this too, a "potential problem bringer upper." Regardless of how excited I was about any given thing, he would immediately bring up a list of potential issues with it, why it might go "wrong", why it might not work, etc. Now me, I am a very excited person, in general. And everybody who knows me knows that. His concern was out of love, because in his mind the world was very really a very disappointing place indeed- in his mind. In the minds of most people, there are all sorts of things, on any given day, at any given time which will go terribly, terribly- "wrong." So it seemed to him, as it does to many others in my life, understandably, that I was setting myself up for some terrible disappointment of some kind just by being extra excited about things. And I was and am so extra excited about oh so very many things.
:D
(Doesn't that sound sweet to you? I mean, it's so fucking sweet. I feel like people would want it.)
Anyway here is the part he didn't understand, and most people find it very difficult to understand.
Which is just how it goes when the entire history of the entire human race has believed something a certain way, and you're trying to explain how it could be another way.
And that is this:
My excitement, extra or otherwise, *never* leads to disappointment. By virtue of the way I see the world, it can not. Even the things that would previously have been the most "devastating" to me, in my life before, when they happen now, only ever bother me for a very small period, I mean like minutes, or hours. And those are so few and far between, and almost gone. And I haven't been living this way for that long if you think about it, and have already come this far, so I do not doubt that *very* soon even those brief moments will be gone. And, being upset for an hour over something most people would suffer fully for weeks or even months over is a fucking great gift, and this is why I spend so much of my time just being grateful to be me. This is not based in ego, this is truth. I am eternally grateful for the truths I have come to recognize, on accounta they are completely clear, and require no faith to believe, just cuzza their true. So you see them so quickly, and see your suffering for what it is soooo quickly, and then it's gone. It has changed my entire life in a completely non-change-backable way. You would be grateful, also!
Big picture, don't worry.
Every moment isn't just all there is. (It is that, though. Which is incredible.) It is also entirely necessary, entirely perfect, and therefore extremely beautiful. Extremely.
**FALSE BELIEFS YOU MAY HAVE ABOUT LIFE THAT RUIN THE PERFECTION OF YOUR EVERY MOMENT ARE THE FOLLOWING:**
1: Whatever is happening right now isn't supposed to be.
There are countless ways in which we believe this about everything that happens, all the time. I wanted it to go this way, this day is supposed to be like this, she was supposed to say this or that, I was wrong, I should have been right, I don't like this person, this happening, this environment, just billions and billions and billions of collective reasons why this moment isn't as it *should be.* This of course feels bad to you on accounta how untrue it is.
You see, we are given a sure and easy way to live life dealing only in truth. Once you get the hang of it, it functions just like a compass. It's how we feel. That which does not feel good to us is bred from place of non-alignment, in thought and usually therefore emotion, meaning we feel shite about stuff when there is something inherintly untrue in it, ie: you feel bad when you think of yourself as stupid, wrong, ugly, a loser, the most unlucky person on the planet on accounta truth is, you're not, so how could that thought feel good. So of course you feel bad. If you feel good when you think of yourself as good, talented, smart, lovable, good at the things you wanna be good at, etc, those thoughts feel awesome, on accounta they are in *alignment with who you really are.* Those thoughts and actions and emotions are bred in truth. Meaning we can follow our feelings to tell if we are in alignment, and once you are, you will see that you only felt bad about stuff happening because of shit that was untrue. And all those thoughts you had about them and emotions you tied to those thoughts. And then you won't feel bad about anything that is happening, ever. And of course what would be happening would be getting better and better. Which leads us to
2: Your life is coming at you completely randomly and could, at any moment, become irreparably horrible and devastated by some event, or many events, or lack of event(s).
We are constantly creating our own experiences, all the time, whether we know it or not, and just as we are feeding into the "bad" things that are happening to us now, we could choose to feed all good-feeling things, (not good like the opposite of bad, on accounta that is up for grabs and not necessarily tied to truth) and once we are feeling better and better gradually our experiences adapt to that for many many reasons, until we find ourselves in a place where we see the truth: there is no good, or bad, until we put it there through thought. Everything only ever is, and is perfect. More on that in a minute.
3: Lack.
There is no such thing as lack. Would you like proof of this? Good. TRY BELIEVING IT. Get back to me. This might help you believe it better: You're *completely* EXTRA-SPECIALLY worthy of -anything- you want, no matter how trivial. Believe that first.
4: I am less, I am more, in this moment.
This is a big one kittens- I am always saying "nothing can either diminish me or enhance me." I can't express how true this is. You have been 100% of yourself since you were born and will be after you die. You have been searching and searching for yourself without understanding you always were, you always were awesome, you always were amazing and perfect, you were never doing anything bad or wrong, just doing, you were never being judged or condemned, just loved, on accounta you *are* love, and are made of love, and that means you never have lack of love either, and life was only ever here for you to enjoy and make the most out of, and any time you made anything less that the most out of it didn't matter in the slightest- Doesn't that sound like a lovely thing to believe? Oh, yeah, it does, accounta it's *TRUE*. -All your bad feelings come from untruths.- ALL OF THEM, always, ever, forever.
5: Judgment- RIGHT and WRONG.
Try to see that when something happens, when ANYTHING happens, you classify it immediately based on "right" or "wrong", or "good" or "bad", and then the emotion you have tied to that comes up. It seems immediate, it seems automatic, I know, but it isn't. Please, try to see that. Because if you can see that, you can see that you can stop that. This is hard to see because the whole human race is sooooo fucking attached to this concept. That there is a right and wrong and you can deviate from it. And you feel bad when you think you've done wrong and you think you deserve to feel this way and that makes you feel worse. Guilt = bad feeling = lie. And some of that right and wrong we decide is less important but some we decide is soooooo important. People feel terrible or angry or yell or hate or destroy or fly planes into buildings or drop bombs or stab someone because of it. And what do we do when they do that? We do the exact same fucking thing, immediately, in response to that happening, on accounta we say how wrong they are and who is right. And we decide what the right vengeance should be. And it's "who is wrong here and who is right?" Today on news-o-rama, we'll have a great big ol chat about who is wrong here and who is right. And then we decide how wrong the people saying they are wrong are. Then some people's opinions about right and wrong we decide is more important. And those people get to make laws about who is wrong and right and then some get to "uphold" them for as long as they can before the world changes as it always does and therefore so does everyone's ideas which used to seem so clear about what is wrong and what is right. But for now- we entrust a few folks who get to pick. Who is bad here people and who is good? Who deserves to die and whose life should be spared? Who can we all agree is the worst of the worst? And then, what level of bad is the worst? What race? If it's just a plant, isn't it better? But that crackhead- he's worse. If it was a robbery is it worse? If they were beaten is it worse? If it was a kid, is it worse? Well did they die? That's worse, then- criminals, surely they are the worst. Lets all get together and talk about how bad they are. We're clearly right so we'll decide what happens to them. So yeah- this is kind of a hard one to let go of.
But if you, and only you need to do it, the whole rest of the world can keep doing what they are doing and you can live differently, trust me,
If you can eliminate this need to be right and have others be wrong, to be good and have them be bad, to look good and avoid looking bad, and *truth* is the way you can do this- the only way,
if you can indeed get rid of your own personal "need" to decide who is bad and why, the "need" to dole out love in sections, to only those you choose have earned it, to take it away when you feel someone has warranted it,
in fact the "need" to have control over or even be *concerned,* ever, about what anyone else is even thinking of doing, ever- EVER--- you can focus on your own experience. And then your experience can always be awesome no matter what anyone is doing on accounta who the fuck cares what they are doing. Ima just love them. Then you can love everybody, which feels awesome.
Trust me.
So chill. Big picture. Once you get that untrue shit out of your moments, you will see them for what they are- perfect, and perfectly designed to help you get whatever you are believing out of life. You will see there is nothing to fear, ever. If you are believing all the best in life, (truth) then you know in your heart all the best is happening all the time for you, and you see it, on accounta you've seen it a million times. You understand that all the most wonderful things you want for yourself will come to you, and that you are worthy of them. You get that there is no lack. You get that we are eternal. So you **NEVER** need to worry, about anything ever.
Life, kittens, will give you *exactly* what you expect from it. So forgive me for expecting a buttload of the most awesome things imaginable. But trust that it's always happening! I'm always closer to all of those things, and no happening negates that closeness, not in the least. It's always coming just as fast, and the more I know that, the faster it comes. There are lots of things that used be the things I knew were coming that have already come. So my dreams are always changing and growing of course out of the joyous process of expansion rather than a feeling of needing or wanting more. I don't need or want. I am and I have. I know that being grateful is the way I'd be vibrating if I had everything I ever dreamed of so I vibrate it NOW since I know I *can* have it- easy on accounta I am already so very grateful for everything I do have- so then I'm always getting more and more. And I'm always dreaming more and more. And every happening of every moment of every day is perfectly designed to bring me the most awesome-feel things in the most awesome-feeling ways imaginable. And it continues.
There are no disappointments, kittens, only further fulfillment, every moment.
Big picture = Don't worry.
Love,
Amber
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