"I think because I try to keep things really simple and concise that I sometimes come across as mean or unfeeling... But I'm really not. I know what it is to struggle, and to feel targeted even, and you may be surprised to hear, that I feel in some ways targeted constantly in the telling of what I believe to be the Truest Truth. So I know exactly how you feel. Maybe I haven't gone through exactly your pain, so I won't say exactly, but I have a good idea how you feel. Prollitty better than you might imagine.
It's just... Hm. Well I might as well just lay out what I believe that's different, and it is different, so I hope you can understand.
I feel there is a place you can come to where you feel so supported, so very loved, from beings that you feel all around you, as close as real friends,
who can reassure and guide you, and know everything about you and what you have been through, and are as real as your friends and realer,
and that they can make you feel like you are ok for being special, and amazing for being special, even as the world around you tries to tear you down. And that you can feel so amazingly strong in the truths that they confirm for you and guide you to that you cease to fear. And that you cease to feel like any of it can even affect you, because you are so sure in the support and love that exists for you.
And if you know I believe in these beings, then you'll see that I feel I communicate with them. They are not anything weird or sinister but merely other beings that just don't happen to be here, on this earth with us, and yet completely are, at the same time. Like a loving family, still at home, and life is like college. I don't know a better way to explain it than that, but it feels like home.
A lot of people would think that sounds completely crazy. But I believe in it so, extremely fully, that it has taken away just, so much of my fear. And so much of the hurt I had for what others had done to me. And so much of my sadness or hopelessness. Knowing and feeling this has just made everything that mattered matter so much more, and anything that didn't matter matter so much less.
They make me feel like everything that is happening is meant to happen. That all this is taking us somewhere consistently always, consistently closer, and closer with every second, with every happening, closer and closer. And since I feel that way, I can look out into a world that seems so desperate, so sad, so full of murder and rage and loss and terror and sadness. And still see it moving closer and closer, every second. And so I don't share in the terror. I can't- not when I know what it is bringing. Not when I know where we are going.
Every happening is bringing Truth, a return to who we really Are.
So yeah, I feel like I have this guidance, from others, call them angels, call them whatever you want to call them, but I feel like they are there, right there, in the remembering of this- right now. They aren't waiting to return to Love, they Are Love. In the full knowledge of what they are. And with them around me, reminding me, I can't find it in me to feel the way that I guess seeing all that murder and rage and loss and sadness "should" make me feel. Or how it makes most people feel. Or how people think it should make me feel, a lot of the time.
So I am sorry, truly sorry, if I said anything that hurt you. But telling you that you could get to a place where your gifts and even your life feels totally different is something I feel like I have to speak up for, if for only one reason, one all-important reason,
which is that I feel like everyone could do it.
And if you felt the way I felt, and got to live with less of those terrible feelings and more of the better ones, you would want it for everyone. And you would never want to give it up, and you would want to speak up for it. You would want everyone you love to know it was possible, if you thought it was possible. To feel this way.
You would have to, even if it sounded crazy.
I usually don't try to convince anyone that the beings exist.
Instead, I try to show their existence, by remembering who I truly am always. By staying as close to them as possible, and by living the Life that expresses what we truly are, and to me that means expressing Love always. I know how it comes across, a lot of the time. But I can't sell out Love, and I can't help but stay in a place that sees the world through the eyes of Love. Anyone who looks at the world through the eyes of Love would never want to look at it any other way. Ever again.
I super, duper love you,
Amber
