Blahg #3 - "Magic."

One of my favorite moments of the day is in the morning, when I first start listening to my tracks.

Lots of times I have almost forgotten all the changes and new things I did yesterday, and I get to get all excited all over again.

I get so excited whenever I get to hear this stuff, which is almost all the time, and I'm only loving all of it more and more as I go, and the level of excitement just increases. It's a cycle, you see. A gloooorious cycle, bred in the power of connection to all that is, which makes you infinitely powerful- made possible by the power of deliberate creation in this physical world, and bringing with it a joy that is only possible when you realize those things, and what they really mean, and what they really can do for you, and change your whole life because of it. And in realizing/remembering who you are, who we all are, really, and what the fuck we can do on this planet, which I don't need to tell you is godlike in nature. And this is because we are made up of god. Godness. Life. So we all are all-powerful in it. I would like to repeat once more that we are all-powerful in it. This music is different because it is made from a place of creative power that could have only ever existed for me here and now, because every single event of my entire life at this point has led up to this, and everything has been equally necessary. And how cool is that? And I know I go on a lot about how special it is, this album, but it's on accounta it's very fucking special. To me, is what I mean. To me.

I'm surprised at it all the time. That I'm even making it- and I can't tell you how blessed I feel to be making it, and how grateful. The thing is I'm not really doing anything, except just listening and listening and letting it come together and flow, like pulling the song out gradually somehow... but it's almost as if it already existed and I'm just putting pieces together. Like the pieces are held out in front of me, and handed to me... kind of. So- it's a gift to me. It almost feels like... cheating? I hope that can be understood. I actually find myself laughing, working on it, out of sheer excitement of *it*. Because it's very good. Because magic is always very good.

Find your magic, cats and kittens.

Back to work.

Love,

Amber